Saturday, April 14, 2012

Retreat! I QUIT!

I did it.


I quit my job. 

"I" couldn't take the stress anymore.
"I" was overwhelmed.
"I" went looking for a "better", "more convenient" job.
"I" found it.
"I" got an offer for it.
"I" accepted it.
"I" resigned from my job.
"I" still didn't feel a peace.

"But God..." stepped in.
God clearly showed me the error of my ways.
God lovingly reminded me that He will care for and provide for me and my sanity where He has me.
God gently but firmly put me in my place---or rather told me to stay there.
God humbled me by having me rescind my acceptance of the job offer AND rescind my resignation.
Then God gave me peace---a peace I cannot explain nor understand.

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And here I sit, literally on retreat by the edge of a beautiful, peaceful body of water on the grounds of a serene conference center He led me to.

"He leads me beside still waters...He restores my soul..."

Let me start that part over again from the top.

The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want.
He has provided miraculously and frequently for me and my family.
He makes me to lie down in green pastures;
on my orange and green plaid picnic blanket napping in the breeze.
He leads me beside the still waters.
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as I ambled along the water's edge to find this very spot.
He restores my soul;
as I just attended a Ladies' Retreat called "Restore My Heart" by Denise Glenn.
He leads me in the paths of righteousness
even though my own chosen path seemed like an easy way out.
For His name’s sake.
He lovingly keeps me on track in the ways that will glorify Him most.
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
as dear friends have tragically lost loved ones this week, and as the vehicles in my family keep requiring unexpected, costly maintenance.
I will fear no evil; For You are with me;
I feel you, hear you, see you, and even smell you all around me as I sit basking in the beauty and complexity of your creations of nature.
Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.
I have felt the loving, firm rod of your correction and the gentle, consistent staff of your shepherding direction so often recently which remind me that I am loved greatly by you---too much to let me make big mistakes---too much to let me give up.
You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies;
You clearly display your love and provision for me in full view of those who may disagree with and even be angered by the truth of your word that I share.
You anoint my head with oil;
As you write this through me right now I feel your anointing washing over me like precious oil and soothing balm.
My cup runs over.
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Countless, unexpected financial blessings of provision at just the time they are needed have come to me from you recently; not to mention the even more innumerable immaterial blessings of family, friends, and the freedom to read and share your word.
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life;
They have always been following me and will never stop---whether I deserve them or not. You give them freely; I could never earn them.
And I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.
As I am in your presence even now I live the abundant, eternal life you give now and will join you in our heavenly home for eternity on that appointed day.

So for now, I persevere, press on, and promise to be present wherever I am, fully and completely presenting the light of Jesus Christ to the world in whatever way He would have me do so.

And those are my OneWord(s) for 2012:

PRESENT and to
PEACE and I 
PRAY the same for you.

{Okay, so maybe I chose OneLETTER rather than OneWORD.}


What about you? 
How has this post resonated with you?

Please share with me.

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